MyShingle Is Back, Thank You.
Six weeks. Long time to go not just without posting, but without even reading other blogs. Now I am back.
Resuming blogging was hard because my husband was here for the hundreds of posts I’ve penned except for this one. Every post I write from now on, he will never read, never see. The posts I amass from here on out will only serve as physical evidence of the time he has been gone.
For 23 years, my life looked a certain way. I had a husband; a partner to come home to every night. Someone to share ideas with, to gossip with, and just to sit next to, in parallel play on our laptops. I thought it would continue like that forever. But my life is different now, and it goes on whether I want it to or not. I can stop blogging, take a break and step out, but the world continues and I have to go on. I have two daughters to raise and put through college. And truth be told fair, I want to go on. As much as I miss my husband and wish he were here with me every single day, I want to go on and see what’s next even if I have to do it without him.
To all my readers who sent notes or posted supportive comments, thank you so much. I am just starting to write thank you’s for notes I’ve received in the mail and generous contributions to designated charities. But I wanted to let each of you know that your thoughts and kind words have been a comfort and made this horrible time a little less awful.
Very sorry to hear this and for your loss, Carolyn. I hope you can find some comfort in processing what you feel into the printed word here on your blog. Thank you for opening up about it and sharing.
Carolyn, I am an avid reader of your website…and I can’t tell you how sorry I am to hear about your husband. This must have been a very difficult for you and your family–you guys are in my prayers.
Your absence was noticed, but I didn’t know the cause. I’m sorry for your loss. I recently came across a remark about how certain events split your life, i.e., into “before” and “after” that event. You’ve eloquently described this one of yours.
Carolyn – As an admirer of your writing as well as your ability to juggle work and family, I’m not sure how I missed your last post, but my heart goes out to you and your family. Please remember to be easy on yourself and to pace yourself as you get back into things…. Wishing you peace and comfort.
So glad you’re back, albeit changed! I look forward to every post…..but I won’t be disappointed if, from time to time, you ask others to guest blog too! Do what you feel able and don’t be timid to ask for a bit of help!